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Here, in my first published piece of writing, I do both. The shame I internalized because of my isolation made it difficult for me to relate to other people. This journey to self-love is never linear. When I shared the depths of my fears with someone, I finally felt I could be loved and for the first time in my life, I was whole. When we broke up, I thought I would never be complete again.
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